An Update, No Big Deal

I've officially made the halfway mark for my senior year of college. No big deal.

Christmas is also one week away and I have yet to start gift shopping. No big deal.

I have this unrequited crush on someone that hardly knows I exist and yet common sense fails to shake him off my mind. No big deal.

I'm applying to graduate school purely out of faith and will soon be flying up to SF in order to potentially network at SFSU. No big deal.

There are 18 units lined up on my class wish list for next semester. No big deal.

I could write more about my life, but really it's no big deal.

Graduate School

I'm in the process of applying and man oh man is this super exciting/scary in a good way! It's ironic to think how I loathed any schooling past a bachelor's, but now the tables have turned and I absolutely must get a master's degree. It's just the way things are nowadays what with the economic downturn, and the greater demand for higher credibility within the workforce. That's okay by me though. If this means I'll get into a position with a slightly better pay scale, and the skill/knowledge is accounted for, then what do I have to complain about?

My sights are set on SFSU. That city has always been a home away from home. My roots go deep especially with family and technically it's my original birthplace. Plus who could deny the art scene in that city?! It's by far worlds apart and completely better than what's here in San Diego. Don't get me wrong, I love my one true and only SD, but grad school is pulling me elsewhere. We shall see how things unfold I suppose!

Smiles

There are no coincidences in the Kingdom of God!


Oh and in regards to my prior post, I'm on a confidence high and I don't want to come down...

:D

Inward Thoughts

A girl like me shouldn't have issues with self-confidence, right? I mean you would think who I am should be enough motivation to say hello to some guy, right? Ha, well truth be told I'm the biggest chicken doing her chicken dance since KFC launched its business. I don't know why, but every time I see this particular crush of mine, it's like my brain malfunctions because its gears are frozen. Every time I walk past him my eyes want to keep staring eventually shifting focus so that I don't regretfully collide into an immovable object, or worse, another person. A lot of the time, I feel like Tula from My Big Fat Greek Wedding. But she and I have nothing in common! Except for one thing, I can't even freaking say hello to some gorgeous guy. But why should a girl like me lack confidence? I mean shouldn't the guy freeze in his tracks once a gorgeous girl comes his way? Perhaps, but with this day and age the pendulum of the guy-girl dynamic is slightly different and most guys aren't completely obvious half the time. In summary, I'm beautiful, funny, witty, intelligent, mature, and a whole sleuth of other qualities, so then why must I fall victim to my own insecurities!?

It's time I knock out these silly, impractical fears and just put myself out there! Both guys and girls alike appreciate confidence so there's no excuse for me to neglect it! I am determined to be the genuine woman that I am and hopefully my next blog post will be a success story!

*Please note, don't take me for someone who's ultra vain. Cause in reality I'm not. There's a fine line between vanity and self-confidence!

Me Time

You know that proverbial "me" time? Yeah well I could definitely use some of it, I've always been one on to go and have invested into others and their time, but hardly anything at all for me.

Don't get me wrong here, I'm no narcissist nor do I think spending time with others on the reg isn't a good thing, hello! This girl is ridiculously social! It's just we often lose ourselves amidst this crazy whirlwind of a schedule and fail to realize where was the time simply for myself? All I know is I'm gonna need it especially this last year of school. Jesus always had alone time, it's time I followed suit.

Lolz

God keeps me smiling, even when things don't turn out my way... which is like always, HA!

He's got the plans and He's got the keys for every path and doorway of my life, I just need to start resting and stop stressing :]

Heads Up

I feel like I'm starting to neglect my blog more and more. Sorry to all of you faithful readers out there, this girl just doesn't wanna keep it up I guess. Maybe maintaining a livejournal doesn't help either? Anyway, school has already begun to take its toll on me, academically and financially. 17 units this semester is gonna be killer. *Insert desperate prayer here*

I can tell it'll be a weird feeling what with these madated furloughs and fee increases, did I mention this is my senior year? Yeah...

Despite all of this I'm trying to stay faithful and man oh man I've been blessed lately. CA's umemployment rate is nearly 12% and here I am with not one (which is precious enough) but TWO jobs! I have no room to complain.

Let's see here, pondering pondering... I've also met a guy and I think he's mega legit. He's almost too good to be true. We'll see, we'll see ;]